Fatal Wound
Friday, January 19, 2007
Glen finally posted a really really long comment for me. And Peta too. Thanks, you guys! Yes, it's true, of all the negativity that I see, there's still some good things going on in my life. I shouldn't be so narrow minded.
When I was a small girl, I have a complete family. Mom and Dad are just Mom and Dad to me. As I grew, family problems start to grow. Mom and Dad fought a lot. I don't know if I'm involved in their fight. Mom cried. Dad become drunk and aggressive. He doesn't have a steady job for all I know. Every now and then, people asked me what does my father do, I'll just shrug.
Then, we are separated. We are here, he's there. But I'm still okay with it. I don't need any sympathies with this problem. I just want to be strong and live without a father. My mom promised she will take care of us. And she kept her promise. Respect her. She bear with me and my brother and she's still beautiful and strong. How I wish I could have her spirits.
Moving to this place is something valuable to me. I get to adapt in a new environment, I get to move houses, and I get to meet amazing friends. The three of us seemed to be inseparable. That's how a good family should be. I'm glad things happened this way. We don't need him to live.
Things start getting better and better. I met really really good friends. Caring and loving. Considerate and all. I sure wish I cherish them when I can. I still will. Whenever I'm down, they encourage me and lift my spirits. We had fun together and still having fun.
It's true I don't need any "special partner" right now. Or ever. I can be like my mom. Single and carefree. People often looked down on the single status people. They will start talking about the future. What if you die and nobody to bury you? I don't care! When I'm dead, I don't wish for a grand funeral or what. I don't care if I'm left at a corner to rot. What I care is that I have to live my life to the fullest and never let myself down all the time. That's my new year's resolution.
Live everyday like it's my last day!
posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 11:01 AM,
1 Comments:
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At January 19, 2007 at 11:48:00 PM GMT+8,
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Hahaha... It's me again commening you.. Ermm.. I mean I am Glen... Hehe.. First of all.. About the previous comment.. Hehe.. I also don't know I write it that darn long until now.. Hehe.. I was chatting with someone that time and that's explains why I posted to you that darn late.. Hehe.. Anyway.. Don't be sad what happened to your family.. Everything happening must be it's own good reason.. And everything happened must got it's own good and bad consequences.. Think about it.. Am I right? I guess........ Ok then.. To the next thing.. I think everyone also got a little doubt in themself.. Like me for example... I always doubt of my friendship between me and my friends... I always thinking that, "Are they hate me or not?" Everyone got doubt in themself.. So don't worry about it.. I also no confidence in my school exam and recently, SPM.. Owww... I think I won't score any A in any subject... I also think that I won't gets any good result on it.. Haih... Forget about me.. Back to you.. Ermm.. About the funeral thing... Ermmmmm...... Isn't it too early to talk about it... Never knew what will happened to you in the future.. Right? Maybe if you're single, you maybe will sitting in the same house with your own friends... So, don't think about what will be happened in the future of you.. Ok... To tell you the truth again.. I also sometimes thinking about it... Haha.. Weird huhh... Coz our mind almost the same... But I thinking that what will happen to me the time I'm dying... What will cross to my mind that time.. Haha.. I kind a sot sot... But.. Never mind about it.. I guess it's normal for people thinking about their future.. Ermmm... I guess la.. Hahaha... Ok... to the next topic... Talk about you moving here.. Ermm... I know.. It's none of my business.. But, it quite nice that you thinking moving to this place are valuable to you.. Good to you that you start to looking to the bright side now... I guess you can call it looking to the bright side... Hehehe... Ya... You no need to find any 'special partner'.. You no need all that things... Just keep living in happy and try to love all people around you.. Hahahaha... Isn't I am right... And about Peta's comment.. Your funeral? Weird right? Hahahahaha...... If you're dead (choi choi choi), don't worry.. We will be there for you de.... Hahaha... Ok la... I guess I'll be stop my wrting here... Haha... Bye2 then... Haha...