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Saturday, August 30, 2008

Superficial

I might write lots of crap in this entry, like I always do.

Speaking of superficial, I've met tons of superficial people. Every time I meet these kinds of people, I keep asking myself, why can't people be real? At least tell the truth so that I know what you're thinking in your head. Just try not to fake it, the more you fake, the more trouble you'll get. So what if you don't know how to do certain things? Just tell me that you don't know, and we'll straighten things up. Or just tell me how you honestly feel, so that I know what to do to make you less comfortable.

The most superficial bitch I've met this week is that Rachel John from the training department. What a two faced bitch she is, pretending to be sick so that I won't push her hard. What I'm trying to tell her is that I want to learn more so that she can place me in another department. What she thinks is that I need to be more patient about the department I'm currently in. Just because I don't like working in that current department doesn't means that I'm weak and want to give up. It's just that I don't like working there. It's hot, it's sweaty, it's muscle aching! And she expects me to sacrifice more time for work, for an unpaid training in that hotel, and abandon my family. The moment I heard those words from her, I just want to curse her a disaster of family problems so that she knows the situation I'm getting in just to get a stupid diploma.

Well, fuck her and fuck her life.

And speaking of life, why is that she keep saying that when I work in the hotel, I must consider the hotel as my second home? She said I'll be constantly spending most of my days in the hotel. What kind of person would like to spend their time in the hotel, especially when I'm not being paid. Every day when I'm at the hotel, I'm counting how many hours left for me till I go home. And my life is practically getting more and more boring. It's the same old routine for me every single day. Get up-Get ready-Work-Go home-Sleep. With this freaking routine every day, you think I have anything exciting to write in this blog, except for complaining? I'm a freak person, I like to have excitements in my life. I want my life to be exciting and full of fun in spite of all the negativities. I don't want a life that tells me that I'm a working class person. It's so not worth living if I'm constantly working and working and not have any single fun in life.

Today seemed to be a nice day to me. It's the first time I had fun at work. I get to eat tortillas, drink Sling and drink beer. And I think I'm drunk now. Can't wait to get my new tattoo tomorrow, and I surely can't wait for my birthday to come. =)

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 11:56 PM, ,

You are the dream
Wednesday, August 27, 2008

..and I'm the nightmare

Realize why my recent entries always start with some Italic sentences? It's the lyrics of the song I'm listening to when I'm writing this blog. =) Don't judge me, I just love good songs.

Now I know why I'm such a perfectionist freak. The simple reason, I don't like to read bad articles, i.e. incorrect spelling and bad grammar. =) It finally took me one whole day to figure that out.

OH!! Something bad + wonderful happened yesterday.

I still hate my job, people here are really taking advantage of us trainees. 'Nuff said. I wish I'm assigned to the Sunset Bar everyday. I like working with Doris, she's like the only staff that understand out feelings. =) And we have so many conversations. Never get bored. And Joseph is so patient with me when I'm making my first cocktail. The Borneo Paradise!

Met my crush yesterday too. He's doing some sort of things with a Chinese gangster. He gets to make the gangster in pain without getting into trouble. =) How cool is that? Nope, he's not into those gangster stuffs, it's just a job, safe job.

He said I looked nice and he's happy to see me!!! Imagine how wide my smile is, hohoho. And he's waiting for a date. Ok, I should shut up now!!!!

Hopefully I get my 2nd tattoo this week. But I'm kinda busy. Figuring out how to squeeze some time for tattoo time!~

I'm kinda disappointed when I heard the juniors are all going to Hyatt instead of Star. It's like so unfair, I wanna meet my friends for so long. Such a slap in the face! Conclusion, everything in Star is working out fine, except for the F&B department.

I think I need to stop now and start to get ready again for work. My life is getting so boring these few days, it's like a list that's inside my head. What time doing what. Hurm, so dissatisfied!

Here's something scary

You said she is so evil, but
She looks like heaven to me
I'd follow her to hell and back again
I swear I'd sign my name in blood
It dripped down from my veins
I swore I'd never tell

I look so weird in the last picture.

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 9:35 AM, ,

See you on the flipside
Tuesday, August 26, 2008

Nothing showing on the outside, some thing's dying on the inside....

You know what, I think I'm being a fucking perfectionist again. Notice the way I type in this blog, words/alphabets that are supposed to be capitalized are capitalized. I even spell proof my blog! And making sure the grammar is fine. =.= I type differently in blog and in my messenger. I'm such a weirdo.

I hate unknown "miss callers" and texts. Lately I've received these fucking calls and texts. And the sender don't even want to tell me what their names are. I'm so fed up with these losers. Is it that important that they keep their identities hidden? Or is it because they are superheroes? Fuck my ARSE!! Total losers =OOOOOOOOO

Elsa's mom bought a chain from Aussie for me. It's a 24-ct Gold Kangaroo chain. And Elsa told me it's not real gold. I don't believe it! It's written there clearly, right?? If it's real, I don't think I can accept it. I'm such a klutz when it comes to handling expensive stuffs. The only expensive thing I'm wearing right now is a gold chain with jade my aunt gave me as a sign of protection. My cell phone is as wrecked as hell, so that proves that I'm not a good person in taking care of things properly. =.=

I miss the Front Office badly. =( I miss disturbing Feddy every time in the reception. I miss him insulting people and email-ing his girlfriend. (He let me read his emails). I miss Betsy always asking us to go take food with her. I miss uncle Sid and his funny acts. I miss James and his chin. I miss Haensen for always lying to me!(as a joke). I miss "taking" pens home from the office. I miss Giant for hiding behind the pillar even though I see him. I miss lazying around in the luggage room! =(((((((((( Sad face with so many chins! =.=

Yesterday some one asked about my status. I'm single and -available-. And he said he wants to "fill in the application" form. =.= Makes me crack up even though it's not funny.

Kyle Patrick's voice is so sexy!!

And I love disco songs! They are so retro!

I don't wanna go to work!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The radios
Are all in tune
A thousand cars
A disco ball when
The headlight moves
Were gonna dance
'til we see the sun

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 9:57 AM, ,

Everyone
Monday, August 25, 2008

wants to be loved...
I'm not in loved, this is not my heart

Okay, I'm not emo.

Ihateworkingthere. =( I'm so tired, and I have to get ready in 15 minutes and still writing this. Yesterday was a good day for me, not only did I get an off day, I get to watch 3 CSIs. And oh, Olympic's over. Got to see David Beckham kicking ball.

I promised to Glen I will update more often. Yeah, I love writing shits in my blog. But the problem is that, I run out of shits. T.T I don't have anyone to bitch...

Oh yeah, was chatting with Bam last night. She may be my date to do the piercings. Yay, a pierce partner! She's my new best friend!

Okay, since I have nothing much to say about my life right now, I may talk about hot men. Hmm..yummy!

Robert Downey Jr.

Okay, he might be old, but who can resist a superhero who is also a playboy in Iron Man. A cheesy hot guy in Kiss Kiss Bang Bang. A hot guy in Zodiac. Oh my gosh, I'm gushing about an old man. He's got a son for God's sake. Ha!











Is he hot or hot?!!?!?!?!

Alrite, I need to stop here to get ready or I'm gonna be shitty late for my shitty work with shitty staffs and fucking manager and lame fucks.

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 9:50 AM, ,

What I like
Saturday, August 23, 2008

You don't have sleep because I can hear your heart beat fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink....

My emotions are really unstable. Sometimes I think of this, and sometimes I think of that. My head aches, my muscles aches. I'm not myself.

Every time I become unstable, I think of piercing myself and tattooing. It's like the pain inside is now spreading to the outside. The only thing that can make me numb is the pain. The Pain. Am I seriously ruining my life? I hate everything I see, I hear, I feel. If only someone can see how wrecked I am.

Why do I always keep a strong head up even though things are not good. It's not making sense anymore. I don't care what people feel about me, and I don't care what their feelings are anymore. I don't care if they are hurt by words that came out from my mouth. They are all peasants to me now. What's my problem? I think I'm just empty.

Currently filling my life with some stuffs to make me less bored.

1. Waiting for the new season of Desperate Housewives. (Yes, I love to watch desperations)
2. Wishing CSI airs every single day and every single hour of my life. Nobody can deny that the series are superbly brilliant. I don't know why I so hooked by it by now. Every time I watch every episode my mind is like blown away. It's awesomely awesome! (Eddie is so cute >.<)
3. Reading thick novels (just finished one). I need to buy more!
4. Thinking of stuffs to write down in this blog. =)
5. Wishing China would stop winning those Olympic Golds and give other countries some chances, like Malaysia. Poor LCW. Never mind, you're still cute to me =)
6. Michael Phelps.
7. Thinking of designs that are forever going to be on me.
8. Hate boys/men.
9. Wishing of the end of practical. =(

Listing down stuffs are great.

and 10. Miley Cyrus' brother. ^^

I think I love writing about my life. My pathetic little life. There must be something I'm grateful for. I'll list that down in the future. =p

My cousin left KK for the US. All I can say is the best for him. I love his cooking. It's always creamy and rich!

Waiting for the puppies to grow up!

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 9:41 PM, ,

Wanna see my ink?
Wednesday, August 20, 2008

Hey hello there, so how was my previous entry?

Connection here is weird. I downloaded some albums, it worked out fine, until it reaches 99% it stopped completely =.=. I don't know whether to laugh or cry. It's just weird to me. I WANT MY SONGS!!!

Oh wells, I might continue my previous entry. Scroll down to March, I've been blabbing about a girl. Well, something happened today. I'm ecstatic to tell it to the world. Proves that I'm the meanest person ever in this world.

Okay, here's what happened. That girl actually added my Friendster. Well, I added her and then deleted her. =D Then she still got the guts to add me again =O. Maybe I'm that awesome. =DD This happened like last few weeks ago. And today, I finally got on my ass and sent her a message. Wanna see it?


I've been cracking my head to think of new tattoos to add for myself. Well, here's how I'm gonna end this post. My very first tattoo.... Like it?

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 3:53 PM, ,

First one after 7 months =)
Tuesday, August 19, 2008

Yes, I know, it's 7 months. And I owe you guys 7 months of story telling. This would be one heck of a blog entry. Prepare to get blinded.

January
It's a new year. My 3rd semester in college. It's a short semester, which means less time to study(8 weeks), to do my assignments and projects and to finish up my exam. And also get an interview for next semester's industrial training. But I tried to take it slow. Started the semester with lots of bowling, cruising and fooling around. First 4 weeks are gone just like that. Blew it off for February.

February
Well, okay then, I have another 4 weeks till it reach exam time. I hate exams literally, who likes exams? Exams killed my brother. What a cruel thing!!! Spent this month catching up with the 2 freaking subjects which are as boring as your grandmother. Non-practical, all theories. I just hate studying. Studying and reading are completely different activities. Studying is so non-addictive, where as reading is freaking addictive that you are willing to splurge your money to buy more books which are all more than RM30. Every time I study, I'll fall asleep within the first 10 minutes, and then sleep again. Well, February sucks, because it's all studying, projects and assignments and some fucking club thing I wish I never get involved anymore.

Chinese New Year's this month also right? Spent it in Papar with my friends. Came back, got my car crashed by some fucking criminal person. Not the whole car, but my window. Just for a freaking bag which contains clothes and nothing more. What idiot! And what made me pissed is that the college's insurance is not willing to cover it because it "does-not-cover-thefts-but-covers-natural-disasters". What the fuck, natural disaster only happens like once a year, but thefts happen like every single day. Seems that the college is stupendously "smart" when buying insurance. Fuck insurance and fuck that person who crashed my car. Suck it, snort it, lick it, fuck it.

March
First week was exam week for short semester students (I guess). Since you know I hate studying, I still have to get with it. Eventually, I survived it (wonder how I can). Had a part time job back at my old times. As usual, I hated it. Well, I hate lots of things (shrug). Got to know one particular person. A jerk. A natural jerk. A fucking jerk. He does not deserve to be mentioned in my oh-so awesome blog. Well, just to tell you, he sucks and he cheated on me. And that girl he's with lied to me. Why do people think I'm stupid??? Like a girl which is 4 months pregnant can have flatter stomach than me. Like what the fuck! Now I know, people which are not as educated as me thinks they are freaking smart when they just have empty shells in their brains. And not only them, the mom of the jerk is a bitch too. Lets just say, uncivilized people are effing so not awesome. To think they can sink down to the level to claim that they are pregnant. Sluts whore bitch.

April
This month was and still is the hardest month I have to go through. Not only I have to put up with that jerk, my one and only brother passed away. I'm going to blame everyone in this issue. The family, the school, the friends. To think that I'm strong enough to get through this is such a white lie. I practically got worse and worse. Still am worse and fucked up. Now I hate everything in life. To have almost everything taken away it's not emotional anymore, it's just empty. RIP JIM. I respect you for your courage and your love. April's supposed to be a long blog, but it's hard to type that down when you're continuously swallowing all those hard times.

May
Is when I finally got it to my 4th semester. Got a training at some hotel around town. Been training till now. This training is supposed to make me busy and tired to think about issues. So not much, just working and training.

June
Had a small trip to attend my cousin's wedding. Congratulations Andy! You finally made it. =) And then continue my training. Now I just wish it will end soon. And oh, my first breakdown since my bro's ____.

July
Finally got a tattoo. I'll be talking on tattoos in this month. It's just so addictive. The pain, it's so wonderful. Probably another way to get through with my breakdowns. So expect me to get more. Just don't stop me. When I want it, I get it. And those people out there with fake tattoos, you're as fake as your tattoo. Screw you! Right in your face. <-- A tattoo which I like to get. Be very afraid, my tattoo costs 2 tissues full of blood and ink. So, get a tattoo if you dare.

August
Getting through August now. Practically nothing much, just got a crush on a guy (my tattoo artist) =) He's cute, but taken. =( But he asked for my number. =) And he got the same name as my bro's....


So how many "fuck"s, "suck"s, "screw"s and other very vulgar words in this blog?

That's me =)

posted by Xia XY - My Blahs @ 12:16 PM, ,

Xia XY - My Blahs